A Scary New Journey

Hi, guys! so how's it going? good? I hope so. Well... you're probably reading the title and are like "what's this all about?"

*sigh*

I've been thinking about this idea for MONTHS and MONTHS and I think I'm probably ready to embark in a new journey with all of you guys. And that journey is... that I think I'm going to start posting videos  on YouTube!
*cheers*

I always like trying new things and I feel like it's finally time to step out of my comfort zone. I've been blogging for like 3 years. Don't get me wrong writing is fun and all, but I think this baby bird is ready to fly out the nest and see the world. oh gosh did I refer myself to a baby bird? *shakes head in disbelief* *awkward laugh* haha

So, I looked inside my wallet and I took the very little money I had and headed to "Five Below." I got myself a starter tripod and a starter mic. I know this isn't much but hopefully over time my stuff can improve  :)

The style of videos I'm going to be trying to make are "animation" you know like "Swoozie"
"theodd1sout"
"Jaiden Animations"
(some of my favorite animators)

of course not as good cause I don't have all the proper equipment but I hope you guys still support me.

You guys know I like keeping it real with you guys and to be honest. I'm really scared. REALLY REALLY SCARED. So scared that I'm literally crying as I'm writing this.

I'm scared cause I struggle with how I look I don't want people to come for me and my insecurities. so, I decided that until I get comfortable actually showing my face on video for the mean time all my videos are just gonna be my little character I drew. (Kinda like what "theodd1sout" does)

When I get comfortable showing my face on camera maybe just maybe I can do what Swoozie does. You know where parts of his video are him telling the story and it cuts to his animation of the story.

I don't know exactly when I'm going to start posting videos but I've been practicing talking a lot. Practicing talking? ya I know you're probably reading this and are like "ummm Jessica how do you practice talking" well I go on random rants or just talk in random voices and all. You know to get myself comfortable with talking to myself.

I'm also trying to get myself accustomed to hearing my voice on recordings. Ughhh I hate HATE HATE it! Anyone else have that problem where they can't stand how their voice sounds on recordings? haha I sound like a scared little girl. If you guys don't have this problem and have any tips/tricks you're willing to share please leave them in the comments below or tweet them to me. Please I really need them.

hummm what else can I say besides...

I'm scared
I'm really really scared
I'm trying a lot
and I hope you guys don't get mad at me when I don't post a blog every monday.

Just know that this may seem like something small and not a big deal. Hopefully none but if someone is reading this and is like "dude it's just recording a video and posting it. It's not that hard"

For me this is the HARDEST thing I've ever tried (lmao that's what she said). I freaking hate being on camera. Every single time I'm at a family party and they bring out the "Facebook live" I'm like "peace" and poof I vanish out the room faster then you can blink your eyes.

I'm extremely camera shy and voice shy. Haha I don't like talking that much (I'm so sorry future boyfriend lol) it takes me a LONG time to warm up to you and then bam I'm like a fucking parrot lol. Just ask my in real life friend. (I'm so sorry again future boyfriend that you're probably going to have to help me come outta my shell by doing all the talking on our first dates)


I wanna step out of my shell and do this because it's way WAY out of my comfort zone and I want to be an example to those that are really scared to do things out of their comfort zone. I want to show you guys that it's ok. And with that being said I really hope you guys can join me on this journey so I won't feel as lonely. (Oh gosh here comes the water works)


Love you ♡


Here's my channel just in case you guys want subscribe. (Haha feels so weird telling people to subscribe) but subscribe if you want to be one of the first ones to see my very first video.

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Here's some proof that I'm actually trying you guys. I don't know exactly when I will post my very first video or what exactly it would be about (if you have any ideas on what I can talk about please tell me. I'm despirate)